This is something I've been struggling with for a while. Normally I'm not a very focused person, but lately it's been getting worse. I bought a guitar last summer--I don't really play it. Baseball season is starting--I haven't been able to get into it. The job search hasn't really moved for 6-9 months. I just feel like nothing's ever going to change in my life--and that's scary. Like, not even gradual changes that I'll look back on after a few months and say, "that really shaped me, I'm glad I went through that."
Oh well, this will probably pass in a few days, just have to keep on keeping on
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Meaning
Hi, I just led a youth group session about meaning. This has been on my heart for a long time. I'm trying to figure out how to make sure I place meaning on the important things in my life and not all the fluff that surrounds those core items. I want my "yes" and "no" to be as good as a promise just because I said so. If I get married, I want to tell my wife I love her and see in her eyes that she knows it's true--no doubt about it. Hopefully that makes sense.
Here's to an agape love for one and all.
nate
Here's to an agape love for one and all.
nate
Sunday, March 1, 2009
It's been a while
i realize it's been a while. i don't know how many people are actually reading this, buy i apologize if anyone was 'hooked' after one reading.
anyway, i took a trip to orange city iowa this past weekend. good times. i was able to hang out with a few people. reconnect and all that. on my way home today, i started screaming at God. things in my life just feel like they are ripe for answering. the big things are what to do with friends, girls, and a career. the only problem is that i don't hear God. i don't think i ever have.
to make it worse, i realized on the way home that i feel nothing like a child of God. i feel like all i do is pile on God and then he's too busy to give me an answer so i run somewhere else and try to figure it out. i don't feel like a christian "ought to"--it scares me.
i don't know.
nate
p.s. i'll try to post more regularly, but i am a perfectionist when it comes to getting my point across--if i have an idea, i need to think about it all the way through before i do anything with it--it's a blessing and a curse.
anyway, i took a trip to orange city iowa this past weekend. good times. i was able to hang out with a few people. reconnect and all that. on my way home today, i started screaming at God. things in my life just feel like they are ripe for answering. the big things are what to do with friends, girls, and a career. the only problem is that i don't hear God. i don't think i ever have.
to make it worse, i realized on the way home that i feel nothing like a child of God. i feel like all i do is pile on God and then he's too busy to give me an answer so i run somewhere else and try to figure it out. i don't feel like a christian "ought to"--it scares me.
i don't know.
nate
p.s. i'll try to post more regularly, but i am a perfectionist when it comes to getting my point across--if i have an idea, i need to think about it all the way through before i do anything with it--it's a blessing and a curse.
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