Living a life with passion

This is something I've been struggling with for a while. Normally I'm not a very focused person, but lately it's been getting worse. I bought a guitar last summer--I don't really play it. Baseball season is starting--I haven't been able to get into it. The job search hasn't really moved for 6-9 months. I just feel like nothing's ever going to change in my life--and that's scary. Like, not even gradual changes that I'll look back on after a few months and say, "that really shaped me, I'm glad I went through that."

Oh well, this will probably pass in a few days, just have to keep on keeping on

Meaning

Hi, I just led a youth group session about meaning. This has been on my heart for a long time. I'm trying to figure out how to make sure I place meaning on the important things in my life and not all the fluff that surrounds those core items. I want my "yes" and "no" to be as good as a promise just because I said so. If I get married, I want to tell my wife I love her and see in her eyes that she knows it's true--no doubt about it. Hopefully that makes sense.

Here's to an agape love for one and all.

nate

It's been a while

i realize it's been a while. i don't know how many people are actually reading this, buy i apologize if anyone was 'hooked' after one reading.

anyway, i took a trip to orange city iowa this past weekend. good times. i was able to hang out with a few people. reconnect and all that. on my way home today, i started screaming at God. things in my life just feel like they are ripe for answering. the big things are what to do with friends, girls, and a career. the only problem is that i don't hear God. i don't think i ever have.

to make it worse, i realized on the way home that i feel nothing like a child of God. i feel like all i do is pile on God and then he's too busy to give me an answer so i run somewhere else and try to figure it out. i don't feel like a christian "ought to"--it scares me.

i don't know.

nate

p.s. i'll try to post more regularly, but i am a perfectionist when it comes to getting my point across--if i have an idea, i need to think about it all the way through before i do anything with it--it's a blessing and a curse.

Introduction

Hi there,

My name is Nate. I don't know if you'll ever read this blog again, but if you don't God Bless you.

I'm writing this blog because everywhere I look I see broken people. I wanted to name my blog "Broken dreams, Shattered Souls, and Picking up the Pieces", but the box wouldn't take a name that long. I don't like seeing broken things-people, animals, pottery, etc... I want to put things back together, but I know that I'm not skilled enough to do anything about it 90% of the time. What I am good at is listening. So I'm going to leave this blog open to all viewers.

As you may have guessed I am a christian, but I'm not a very good evangelist. I don't bring people to Christ, I just love them. If someone brings Jesus into the discussion I'm not going to deny knowing him (at least I hope I won't), I just try to be a reflector of the Son, much as the moon reflects the sun. If there is anything else you want to know about me that I may not write about, please ask me and I will tell you, a long time ago I decided that my story shouldn't be hidden either.

I just wanted to get this blog started and see where it goes.

Hope all is well with you and if it isn't, I will pray for the hurting tonight,

nate